I’d been searching for the truth on the pages of the book about Jesus, the Son of God, our Saviour, Redeemer. When I found I was a sinner, I heard: "Plunge into the water, plunge into the water!" I obeyed. I plunged into the water in hope my soul would be healed I kept on floundering in the pool of guilt. instead of climbing up the promised ladder I believed I must flounder harder to become righteous, to please the Almighty God. I was continually plunging and floundering, plunging and floundering. One inappropriate word— my white shirt was spotted by a drop of grease; One accidental spit of anger— the entire shirt was drenched in dirt. I felt cursed. I thought: "How can I claim I’m a follower of Jesus if I embarrass Him with my every move?" I heard a whisper “Stop moving, you can never be worthy, you are untalented, not perfect.” I kept on nodding yes to the lies of the devil until the day I met friends whose souls were crushed just like mine. I asked Jesus “How come instead of the promised freedom, our souls got entrapped in the pool of still remaining sins? What should we understand to finally cleanse our garments?" “Believe in me”, He said. “I do believe, my Lord. I do believe, but something is not right with my belief. I’ve been reading your Word for many years, but I often feel myself a hypocrite. When I think I know You I discover my blindness. When I think I’m close to You I find myself thrown far away. It’s so difficult for educated people to see the Truth of God— sometimes I think I would’ve lived a more fulfilling godly life if I never pursued my degrees. Teach me to know You. make me feel Your heart I don’t want to be another preacher who proclaims he knows you, but he never even listened to your heartbeat. Come and possess my soul with the Holy Spirit so that all evil would flee from me. That's when I’ll truly know you, and I will understand the truth, I'll be able to keep your commands and you'll never let me fall into that pool." “Believe in me”, He said.
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